i'm out of bed at 4 in the morning wishing i was dead

"i don't wanna say goodbye but sometimes things just don't go as we'd like. all i wanna do is cry, say my farewells, pack up and leave tonight.

farewell miss, i know that you can care less but im sorry for everything. i was careless but i need you to know that i love you so much and i've been drinking myself to sleep. my soul's crushed, a couple more shots, i know, i'm gonna' go nuts. i can't deal with the fact you left me with no crutch. i was in love with you, how could you do this to me? actually i did this to myself, what a tragedy. and now what do i do? where do i go? 'cause everywhere i go i see your face. it's hard starting over, trying to find another shoulder to lean on. i feel like my whole life just got peed on. they say time heals but dammit i wanna stop time and feel this pain. as crazy as it sound to me it's same and i like it, why? 'cause i feel like were still united in some weird way i don't wanna fight it.

i wrote you the other day and you didn't write back. it's like that? after all the crap we been through? i can't belive you. i know i fucked up! ~~ but you'r probably busy kissing someone else's lips while i'm sitting where cleaning my shoes from this shit. your hard headed a sharp headache, i need help call a medic. i just cut myself, yea i did it, without you i'm nothing. don't you get it? everytime that i said i loved you, i meant it. you turn and tell me you hate me and regret that we ever met, i can't believe you just said that. you're so cold, you just hit me so low. i can't take this nomore, so hit the road.

some things just don't seem the way they do, one day you tell me 

'i love you and only you'. i wake up to find out it was a dream. 

you're telling you hate me, you're leaving me. people change, 

everything changes. we go from best friends then become 

strangers. we do from seeing eachother everyday then farewell 

to never seeing your face again.

i don't wanna say goodbye but sometimes things just don't go as we'd like. all i wanna do is cry, say my farewells, pack up and leave tonight. i don't wanna say goodbye but sometimes things just don't go as we'd like. all i wanna do is cry, say my farewells, pack up and leave tonight."