"a side of me wanna be free, a side of me wanna stay a prisoner. i wanna live long, wanna live free, wanna be healthy but i'm spending my time doing my best to destroy myself. i know what i'm doing is wrong, but the disease is strong, stronger than my will of going on. i'm destroying myself, but i do admit i may need help. can somebody get me out of this nightmare? i thought i had the control, i thought i could hold the reindeers of my life but i failed and i need some help to rebuild myself. i hate this new side of me, that never can see the abyss i am putting myself in. this new side of me, that likes to destroy myself. help me."
"i told another lie today and i got through this day, no one saw through my games. i know the right words to say like "i don't feel well" or "i ate before i came". then someone tells me how good i look
and for a moment, for a moment, i am happy. but when i'm alone no one hears me cry. i don't know the first time i felt unbeautiful, the day i chose not to eat. here are days when i'm okay and for a moment, for a moment, i find hope but there are days when i'm not okay and i need your help."
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